My Worries + My Soul = My Story

Hye , finally its gonna be the end of the year 2011 ...
I completed my 3years Diploma in Polytechnic .
I start work as an auditor as my family wish .
I complete my Laughter , Joy n Happiness in Polytechnic .

Now , am a big girl in this big big world .
What should i gonna do alone ??
Can i move forward or should i turn backword ??
Sometimes i really cant made my own decision ,
really cant take any risk by my own ,

I need some one ...
to LOVE me
to HUG me
to LISTEN my words
to SHARE my world
to WIPE my Tears
to TALK my unhappiens n my happines

Now , at this moment i really need you .
I really need you .

=' (

Ya Allah , maaf kan hamba MU kerana menyakiti Muhammad Hazawan Mohamad..
Sara tak ada niat nak buat cam tu ,
tp bila sampai pada bulan2 tertentu sara tak boleh kawal diri sara ...
Kesian awak semalam , kita patut gembira semalam tapi saya buat awak sedih ... =(

Awak , saya minta maaf sangat - sangat kat awak..
Awak , terima kasih kerana tak pernah nak tinggalkan saya ...

Awak , saya memang EGO tinggi sebab tu mulut saya susah nak minta maaf kat awak ..
TAPI , saya sentiasa menyesal dan takut yang awak akan tinggalkan saya suatu hari nanti ,
saya tak nak kehilangan awak ,
AWAK PENTING dalam HIDUP saya..

Saya perlukan awak untuk bimbing saya ,
untuk ajar saya erti kehidupan ,
untuk bawa saya ke jalan yang betul ,

Hazwan , awak sangat2 penting dalam hidup saya walaupun saya tak cakap depan2 awak ...
Terima kasih kerana menghargai saya ,
Terima kasih kerana menyayangi saya ,
Terima kasih untuk segala - galanya ...

SARAHNAZIRAH BINTI FAIRUZ SHAH LAL SAYANG SANGAT KAT MUHAMMAD HAZWAN BIN MOHAMAD

Semoga jodoh kite direstui dan berkekalan -AMIN-

Huh , its been a long time i didnt went to sec 20. yeah ! i totaly miss my aunt and my family !
When i was with HAN , i need to take care of HAN heart . But now , no more , i feel free to do what i want .
Now my aunt family also good to me already , they glad to hear that am with Hazwan.
But i NOT putting 100% hope on Hazwan .
i scare 1 day i will get bored .
i scare i'll do a bad thing as i done with HAN .

Yesterday , a bad things happen . Its was the 1st and last time for me .
I really fobia and regret on it !!!!
Lucky ALLAH gave me a chance to change !!
i'll not do it again !!

24 / 10 / 2011 - its my Poli Convo Day . My classes start at 2pm ,but now am in Poli already .
just wanna accompany Hazwan .
i hope he is my last person that am in love with .
after i done my studies i wanna find a job and help my family .
my 1st aim is an wash machine for my mom n dad.
hopefully i get a job quickly.

thats all ( sArAhnAzirAh)

Lama nye x tulis Blog ni.
Ermm , banyak sangat benda yang berlaku sejak akhir2 ni.
sekejap sakit gastrik la , sakit kaki la , then asyik bergaduh dgn hazwan je.
Kenapa ek?

Aku plak jenis yang x erti nak bersabar and cepat je nak melenting.
kesian kat wan. tp......
aku da cube berubah , tapi still susah nk bersabar.
EGO aku tinggi.

Blog2 , tolong la aku ubah perangai aku ni..
aku takut dengan perangai aku ni , aku akan kehilangan seseorang.
Tadi aku tersepak almari plak , memang sakit la kaki aku.
apa la malang sangat kan aku ni..

Tapi aku nak doakan family aku sihat and dimurahkan rezeki -AMIN-
aku rindu mak aku..
tu je untuk kali ini. =)
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huhhhh, today i let go a person that i loved for almost 5years.
why am i so cruel now days?
why i change my feelings?

GOH SHU HAN ,
i know i cant take back my words to you..
i just hope you will be happy with other girls ,
i just hope you and your family live happily ,
i just hope you will forgive me ..

MUHAMMAD HAZWAN ,
i hope yur love is true ,
i hope i make a right choice..

to night i feel my heart n soul empty .
am all alone at KL Sentral .
i don know where to go , and with who to talk...
i just hope my feelings will get better soon.

anyway , am sorry to those who hurted...

Sorry Blog, so long didnt visit you.. hehe
i've DELETED all my POst...
my minD empty..
am worry bout my mom, my family and my self.

BuT, i have some one special with me, please guess its????
             <hAzwAn>
*good Looking
*NICe
*aLways reMIND me bout ALLAH
*younger than ME
*cAriNg peRsOn
* anD ..............

i feel free with him, no tension no tears BUT just laughter.. ^_^
BUT we are not a PAIR.. just some one SPECIAL..
i Like to be with him,
but i also scare if i fall into him..
i Dont know if i can make a good decision..
But For NOW.......
ALL i want is to HELP my FAmily 1st..

HOPE i get some 'HIDAYAH" from ALLAH

AMIN